john james andrews

pray for me

Last night was the blind date thingy, kida. Well, Jenna and Matt sucked as a couple. So much so that i told him to go away and I just talked to Jenna. Sorry, Jenna. Im sorry! Anyway, my date was late, she had to work until 6 then get out there. When she got out there we had a good time. Shes pretty interesting. I guess Id go out with her again. I mean she was pretty rad.

I stepped on a twig this morning, I broke it in half

you are the single celled organism
that can tell shit from its brains
you are the selfish one
who has to be pulling on the reins
your mistakes preceed you
you will learn from your name
touch my face in passion
its still not gonna be the same

do you want a thousand mile romance
do you think that is plausible
do you want a thousand mile romance
do you think that is plausible

you are the single celled organism
that can tell shit from its brains
you are the selfish one
who has to be pulling on the reins
your mistakes preceed you
you will learn from your name
touch my face in passion
its still not gonna be the same

So...

I'm awake, It's Morning is possibly the best album ever recorded and this is coming from a guy who doesnt like Bright Eyes that much. Go buy it or steal it right now.

im not gonna lie to you. last night was possibly the hardest night of my life. my heart was ripped out. it was extrememly painful. but through this pain the Lord has brought me peace. i am a dumb young boy. i called my mom today just because i needed my mother (she is an awesome woman). anyway... through the pain i had last night i realized this great love that I am willing to give. when the right girl (whom I do not know, at least to my knowledge) is willing to take it. i was looking the wrong way. i made plans and let my plans make me. i wrote this for my lover. who i dont know. but i am hoping she likes it. when she reads it. one day.

markers like screwdrivers

was it easy enough to wait for me
did you ever close your eyes
so you could imagine this beauty
standing in front of you
(youre in front of me.)
i will magnify your sacrifice
one thousand times
i will whisper the surprise
that will be echoed in you ear
until the day you die

i am that sacrifice
i am that surprise
and ive closed my eyes
countless times
trying to imagine your face
your grace
your smile
your shine

i guess i was pretty hard to break

but i think ive finally broken

ive tried everything

now im gonna try nothing

NOSEX... the abstinant band... hahaha

serious pic

ok, so we like to laugh

The boys went to Dmac tonight, got some coffee, looked at some paintings. it was pretty rad.

bye

im just tired of everything. like not frustrated tired but like my body is honestly worn out. and we havent even started our crazy week yet. praise God. he is faithful to even tired college kids

"i know she loved me once, i swear to God she did. Its the way she'd bite my lower lip, push her hips agianst my hips and dig her nails so deep into my skin." - THE GOOD LIFE

I stop everything for good song writing.

quick update on my cousin. the swelling/bleeding on his brain has STOPPED, which is awesome, but all the blood settled by his brain stem, which means, if he woke up or we tried to wake him up he would be in the horrible pain. So they are gonna keep him unconscience til about Tuesday. His pelvis is shattered his leg got pushed up into his midsection (where his pelvis split) and it messed up his bladder. So they have like a thirty pound weight trying to pull it back out of there. Its still pretty scary. The doctors said, its hour to hour... whatever that means.

My family is doing pretty horrible as a whole. A lot of S is going on, not much of my family is saved so HOPEFULLY this can bring them closer to God. Please pray.

On a lighter note. I hung out with Christina last night. Pretty cool girl. Big props to Derek and Becky for working that one out. It got my mind off my cousin for a little while too. So hanging out with a beautiful girl + not having to think too much = a good night.

have an awesome day

guys, please pray for my cousin Mike. He was in a car accident last night. He tried to make a U turn and someone Tboned him. He broke his pelvis, a vertebrae, hes internally bleeding and he has been unconscience/coma type state the whole time. It doesnt look really all that good at all.

"lets villify everything we see
until our dreams
content is not you and me
but circumstance unfolding imperfectly"

Six Virgins Playing Truth or Truth

We probably lost innocence
At least we like to think we did
Around three the fog will set in
We'll keep talking. lying. laughing

Fall in Florida is so erratic
Truth of Truth - truth pragmatic

Geneava, Florida is too small
Like our tents could cover it all
Lies? Truth? Its too late to recall
We'll keep taling. lying. laughing

Fall in Florida is too erratic
Truth or Truth - truth pragmatic

Fall in Florida is too much erratic
Too Much Erratic

i think too many of us focus on an AMAZING calling in our life, or to do something huge or miraculous. when really, i feel like i have only one calling, which is not miraculous or huge, its just to show Gods love in only a way that i can. i mean, think about it, we are always supposed to reflect Gods love, but the way i do it best is by doing it with how only i can do it, with my talents, personality and convictions. which shows a side of God that no one else can show. i mean, God has forgiven us all, but my story is special and unique, just as yours is.

anyway, i heard a new theory on evil which is cool. Its from The Consolation of Philosophy by Boethius. Philosophy came to him as a lady while he was in jail and talked to him. Anyway, she said Evil does not exist. Which I DO NOT BELIEVE. But i thought of something cool (well, my professor said this then i expounded on it in my mind). Think of a glass filled with water and then think of an empty glass. The one glass is filled with water and the other is... of course empty. but its not full of empty. its not full of anything. Evil is kinda like that. Its not just something, but its also the absence of ABSOLUTE GOOD. Satan has nothing to do with God. He is Gods opposite, he is the absance of God (evil). Humans are evil because of Sin and Sin is ultimately the ABSENCE OF GOOD or GOD. This is where it gets cool though. Jesus, became human. But never sinned so He was always Good and in the Presence of God until when? Thats right on the cross! When he became sin and God turned His back on HIM. God presence was no longer with Him. remember!!! Jesus says, My God My God, why hast thou forsaken me?! I dunno, maybe you guys have thought about that before, but i havent. We live in sin because we have 1. sinful flesh and 2. because we are not constantly in the presence of God. but when believers die. the get a new, good, perfect body... because, "to be absent from the flesh is to be present with God"

sweet huh?

remember to breathe.

ha... ill bust out an old D/C lyric anytime. my mind is pretty much on overload. i dont know how to handle this. i guess ill tell you whats going on in the morning. im too tired.

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Brown and Blue

look through the glass
smudged by fingertips
colors, shapes, contrast
like lights and eclipse
as reflections glare
and the subtle night falls
ill stand and stare
and take you in, in awe

can you contrast
brown and blue?
love surpassed
and long overdue.

my eyes...
so happy to find
an object such as you
glorious, treason, debut
glorious, treason, debut
glorious, treason, debut

so delicate
outlines soon complete
pronounce, look, create
smile, look towards me
you're amazing glance
the hair falls in your face
and you shift your stance
like longing for embrace
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The praise band watched the Matt Redman worship thing today. Then we watched Lou Giglio preach. The message was good. He talked about the "Otherness of God" or the Godness of God. So often we say, God is awesome, or cool, but He isnt. God is so much more than that. A movie is awesome, a song is cool. God is above all of it. He is more than the Creator, but that is enough to show us His Godness. Praise Him, He is a Deliverer as well.

God is good. God is more than great. He is God.

Refuge was tonight. There is a lot going on im my little head. How we can improve the worship. How we can improve Refuge. I love Sam, Jason, JT and Chris. I mean, i love everyone at Refuge, but tonight we had a talk, (after you left JT) and I really feel like God will do something great with us IF WE LET HIM and WORK FOR IT. Chris has impressed me lately as well. His heart is different than it was. I dunno. Its kinda neat tho. I mean, we still talk about the ladies and the gossip and what not, but God and how we can get closer to God is part of our conversation now to. I think God is please by that.

I had 2 sweet Bibles a week ago, and they both have been stolen at OBC (or disappeared there). I am getting a Bible tomorrow because... The word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart (Heb 4:12, KJV baby!! haha)

Jasons attitude and meekness impressed me tonight too. He really wants to serve God, right now, which i find to be cool... and incredibly sexy. HAHA.

Sam, oh Sammy boy. That guy is in touch with God, as big and as soft spoken as Sam is. he loves Jesus, and we love him.

JT, i love you for messing up tonight, cause it makes me feel more acceptable. :) way to step up and lead prayer last night too.

peace out (in Kips voice)

So elaidah didnt have practice yesterday. its all good, we will on sunday. Here are the lyrics for our 2 songs we have.

Featherlite
"i can burn your pictures, but your still burning in my heart"

(Untitled song)
oh sinful men we wish away our futures
oh sinful men we wish away our futures

jesus
jesus
ive been living since youve gone
oh i havent been living well

unperfect men
called to do perfect things
unperfect men
called to proclaim kings
unperfect men
unperfect men

jesus
jesus
ive been living since youve gone
but i havent been living well