urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing blots john james andrews 2005-03-11T03:36:29Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:14035 2005-03-11T03:36:29Z 2005-03-11T03:36:29Z pray for me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:13626 2005-02-12T15:41:33Z 2005-02-12T15:41:33Z Last night was the blind date thingy, kida. Well, Jenna and Matt sucked as a couple. So much so that i told him to go away and I just talked to Jenna. Sorry, Jenna. Im sorry! Anyway, my date was late, she had to work until 6 then get out there. When she got out there we had a good time. Shes pretty interesting. I guess Id go out with her again. I mean she was pretty rad. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:13391 2005-02-08T15:30:53Z 2005-02-08T15:30:53Z I stepped on a twig this morning, I broke it in half<br /><br />you are the single celled organism<br />that can tell shit from its brains<br />you are the selfish one<br />who has to be pulling on the reins<br />your mistakes preceed you<br />you will learn from your name<br />touch my face in passion <br />its still not gonna be the same<br /><br />do you want a thousand mile romance<br />do you think that is plausible<br />do you want a thousand mile romance<br />do you think that is plausible<br /><br />you are the single celled organism<br />that can tell shit from its brains<br />you are the selfish one<br />who has to be pulling on the reins<br />your mistakes preceed you<br />you will learn from your name<br />touch my face in passion <br />its still not gonna be the same urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:13301 2005-02-08T15:14:09Z 2005-02-08T15:14:09Z So...<br /><br />I'm awake, It's Morning is possibly the best album ever recorded and this is coming from a guy who doesnt like Bright Eyes that much. Go buy it or steal it right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:13054 2005-02-07T18:52:31Z 2005-02-07T18:52:31Z im not gonna lie to you. last night was possibly the hardest night of my life. my heart was ripped out. it was extrememly painful. but through this pain the Lord has brought me peace. i am a dumb young boy. i called my mom today just because i needed my mother (she is an awesome woman). anyway... through the pain i had last night i realized this great love that I am willing to give. when the right girl (whom I do not know, at least to my knowledge) is willing to take it. i was looking the wrong way. i made plans and let my plans make me. i wrote this for my lover. who i dont know. but i am hoping she likes it. when she reads it. one day.<br /><br />markers like screwdrivers<br /><br />was it easy enough to wait for me<br />did you ever close your eyes<br />so you could imagine this beauty<br />standing in front of you<br />(youre in front of me.)<br />i will magnify your sacrifice <br />one thousand times<br />i will whisper the surprise<br />that will be echoed in you ear<br />until the day you die<br /><br />i am that sacrifice<br />i am that surprise<br />and ive closed my eyes<br />countless times<br />trying to imagine your face<br />your grace<br />your smile<br />your shine urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:12659 2005-02-07T08:48:31Z 2005-02-07T08:51:36Z i guess i was pretty hard to break<br /><br />but i think ive finally broken<br /><br />ive tried everything<br /><br />now im gonna try nothing urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:12433 2005-02-05T06:45:12Z 2005-02-05T06:45:12Z <p><font size="7">NOSEX</font><font size="3">... the abstinant band... hahaha</font></p> <p>serious pic</p> <p><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v73/drewstud25/Nosex.jpg"></p> <p>ok, so we like to laugh</p> <p><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v73/drewstud25/Nosex2.jpg"></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:12022 2005-02-05T06:26:46Z 2005-02-05T06:26:46Z The boys went to Dmac tonight, got some coffee, looked at some paintings. it was pretty rad. <br /><br />bye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:11699 2005-02-02T06:05:22Z 2005-02-02T06:05:22Z im just tired of everything. like not frustrated tired but like my body is honestly worn out. and we havent even started our crazy week yet. praise God. he is faithful to even tired college kids urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:11391 2005-02-01T16:00:49Z 2005-02-01T16:00:49Z "i know she loved me once, i swear to God she did. Its the way she'd bite my lower lip, push her hips agianst my hips and dig her nails so deep into my skin." - THE GOOD LIFE<br /><br />I stop everything for good song writing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:10536 2005-01-29T15:23:22Z 2005-01-29T15:23:22Z quick update on my cousin. the swelling/bleeding on his brain has STOPPED, which is awesome, but all the blood settled by his brain stem, which means, if he woke up or we tried to wake him up he would be in the horrible pain. So they are gonna keep him unconscience til about Tuesday. His pelvis is shattered his leg got pushed up into his midsection (where his pelvis split) and it messed up his bladder. So they have like a thirty pound weight trying to pull it back out of there. Its still pretty scary. The doctors said, its hour to hour... whatever that means. <br /><br />My family is doing pretty horrible as a whole. A lot of S is going on, not much of my family is saved so HOPEFULLY this can bring them closer to God. Please pray.<br /><br />On a lighter note. I hung out with Christina last night. Pretty cool girl. Big props to Derek and Becky for working that one out. It got my mind off my cousin for a little while too. So hanging out with a beautiful girl + not having to think too much = a good night.<br /><br />have an awesome day urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:10484 2005-01-28T16:46:55Z 2005-01-28T16:46:55Z guys, please pray for my cousin Mike. He was in a car accident last night. He tried to make a U turn and someone Tboned him. He broke his pelvis, a vertebrae, hes internally bleeding and he has been unconscience/coma type state the whole time. It doesnt look really all that good at all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:10206 2005-01-27T17:50:46Z 2005-01-27T17:50:46Z "lets villify everything we see<br />until our dreams <br />content is not you and me<br />but circumstance unfolding imperfectly" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:9874 2005-01-26T16:43:16Z 2005-01-26T16:43:16Z Six Virgins Playing Truth or Truth<br /><br />We probably lost innocence<br />At least we like to think we did<br />Around three the fog will set in<br />We'll keep talking. lying. laughing<br /><br />Fall in Florida is so erratic<br />Truth of Truth - truth pragmatic<br /><br />Geneava, Florida is too small<br />Like our tents could cover it all<br />Lies? Truth? Its too late to recall<br />We'll keep taling. lying. laughing<br /><br />Fall in Florida is too erratic<br />Truth or Truth - truth pragmatic<br /><br />Fall in Florida is too much erratic<br />Too Much Erratic urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:9723 2005-01-26T06:25:24Z 2005-01-26T06:25:24Z i think too many of us focus on an AMAZING calling in our life, or to do something huge or miraculous. when really, i feel like i have only one calling, which is not miraculous or huge, its just to show Gods love in only a way that i can. i mean, think about it, we are always supposed to reflect Gods love, but the way i do it best is by doing it with how only i can do it, with my talents, personality and convictions. which shows a side of God that no one else can show. i mean, God has forgiven us all, but my story is special and unique, just as yours is.<br /><br />anyway, i heard a new theory on evil which is cool. Its from The Consolation of Philosophy by Boethius. Philosophy came to him as a lady while he was in jail and talked to him. Anyway, she said Evil does not exist. Which I DO NOT BELIEVE. But i thought of something cool (well, my professor said this then i expounded on it in my mind). Think of a glass filled with water and then think of an empty glass. The one glass is filled with water and the other is... of course empty. but its not full of empty. its not full of anything. Evil is kinda like that. Its not just something, but its also the absence of ABSOLUTE GOOD. Satan has nothing to do with God. He is Gods opposite, he is the absance of God (evil). Humans are evil because of Sin and Sin is ultimately the ABSENCE OF GOOD or GOD. This is where it gets cool though. Jesus, became human. But never sinned so He was always Good and in the Presence of God until when? Thats right on the cross! When he became sin and God turned His back on HIM. God presence was no longer with Him. remember!!! Jesus says, My God My God, why hast thou forsaken me?! I dunno, maybe you guys have thought about that before, but i havent. We live in sin because we have 1. sinful flesh and 2. because we are not constantly in the presence of God. but when believers die. the get a new, good, perfect body... because, "to be absent from the flesh is to be present with God"<br /><br />sweet huh? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:9243 2005-01-25T06:51:48Z 2005-01-25T06:51:48Z remember to breathe.<br /><br />ha... ill bust out an old D/C lyric anytime. my mind is pretty much on overload. i dont know how to handle this. i guess ill tell you whats going on in the morning. im too tired. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:9134 2005-01-24T17:55:02Z 2005-01-24T17:55:02Z --------------------<br />Brown and Blue<br /><br />look through the glass<br />smudged by fingertips<br />colors, shapes, contrast<br />like lights and eclipse<br />as reflections glare<br />and the subtle night falls<br />ill stand and stare<br />and take you in, in awe<br /><br />can you contrast<br />brown and blue?<br />love surpassed<br />and long overdue.<br /><br />my eyes... <br />so happy to find<br />an object such as you<br />glorious, treason, debut<br />glorious, treason, debut<br />glorious, treason, debut<br /><br />so delicate<br />outlines soon complete<br />pronounce, look, create<br />smile, look towards me<br />you're amazing glance<br />the hair falls in your face<br />and you shift your stance<br />like longing for embrace<br />-------------------- urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:8546 2005-01-22T06:25:59Z 2005-01-22T06:25:59Z The praise band watched the Matt Redman worship thing today. Then we watched Lou Giglio preach. The message was good. He talked about the "Otherness of God" or the Godness of God. So often we say, God is awesome, or cool, but He isnt. God is so much more than that. A movie is awesome, a song is cool. God is above all of it. He is more than the Creator, but that is enough to show us His Godness. Praise Him, He is a Deliverer as well. <br /><br />God is good. God is more than great. He is God. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:8410 2005-01-21T07:18:10Z 2005-01-21T07:18:10Z Refuge was tonight. There is a lot going on im my little head. How we can improve the worship. How we can improve Refuge. I love Sam, Jason, JT and Chris. I mean, i love everyone at Refuge, but tonight we had a talk, (after you left JT) and I really feel like God will do something great with us IF WE LET HIM and WORK FOR IT. Chris has impressed me lately as well. His heart is different than it was. I dunno. Its kinda neat tho. I mean, we still talk about the ladies and the gossip and what not, but God and how we can get closer to God is part of our conversation now to. I think God is please by that. <br /><br />I had 2 sweet Bibles a week ago, and they both have been stolen at OBC (or disappeared there). I am getting a Bible tomorrow because... The word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart (Heb 4:12, KJV baby!! haha)<br /><br />Jasons attitude and meekness impressed me tonight too. He really wants to serve God, right now, which i find to be cool... and incredibly sexy. HAHA.<br /><br />Sam, oh Sammy boy. That guy is in touch with God, as big and as soft spoken as Sam is. he loves Jesus, and we love him.<br /><br />JT, i love you for messing up tonight, cause it makes me feel more acceptable. :) way to step up and lead prayer last night too. <br /><br />peace out (in Kips voice) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:8183 2005-01-20T16:22:42Z 2005-01-20T16:22:42Z So elaidah didnt have practice yesterday. its all good, we will on sunday. Here are the lyrics for our 2 songs we have.<br /><br />Featherlite<br />"i can burn your pictures, but your still burning in my heart"<br /><br />(Untitled song)<br />oh sinful men we wish away our futures<br />oh sinful men we wish away our futures<br /><br />jesus<br />jesus<br />ive been living since youve gone<br />oh i havent been living well<br /><br />unperfect men<br />called to do perfect things<br />unperfect men<br />called to proclaim kings<br />unperfect men<br />unperfect men<br /><br />jesus <br />jesus<br />ive been living since youve gone<br />but i havent been living well urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:7882 2005-01-19T03:17:37Z 2005-01-19T03:17:37Z life sucks right now. ive been sick for a solid 3 days. my throat feels like its on fire and when i walk around i get sick. so blah. i also at a point where i can find anything more to do inside my house. i am so freaking bored. tomorrow i have to take my brother to the orthodontist which means i get out of the house, which means, i can hang out/work. toilets have never sounded so apealing! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:7629 2005-01-17T04:45:27Z 2005-01-17T04:45:27Z so many things going on.<br /><br />we had to put my dog to sleep on saturday morning, it sucked. my mom is kinda sad. but she was a good dog.<br /><br />ive really been doing a lot of thinking lately. how i am going to finish college. where i am going to go, what i am going to do. how i am going to do it. truth is, i cant go back to clearwater. i have no idea where else to go. im think BBC, liberty, who knows, trinity?<br /><br />what do i want to do?<br /><br />good question. teach vs. youth. its a tough call. but i dont feel right ever since i left my youth job. i miss teaching sunday school.<br />i amleaving tho. i am going away. next semester. to somewhere not here. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:7360 2005-01-12T06:42:07Z 2005-01-12T06:42:07Z damn... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:6950 2005-01-12T01:43:03Z 2005-01-12T01:43:03Z im at valencia right now. my class got out early. im waiting for jason to get out. im pretty disapointed in a lot of things. i enrolled in 3 Gordon rule classes. Which ws pretty dumb of me. Anyway, i got work tonight, work tomorrow morning, elaidah practice at 3, church then refuge practice after that. pretty freaking rad if you ask me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:called_dividing:6691 2005-01-11T06:15:34Z 2005-01-11T06:15:34Z GOSH, FREAKING IDIOT!<br /><br />haha i just felt like saying that.